The Way of Manifesting in Life

Dearest Julie,

I consider myself to be a Lightworker on this Planet. I've always cared very deeply and it's always been my goal to help others and help make the world a better place ("change the world"). I consider myself a child of the 60's, when idealism abounded. I'm 50 years old, but look, act and feel in my 30's. I'm a "raw foodist," and teach raw food classes out of my home part-time and have been for a year and a half. I may be an indigo adult (I'm not sure), but this could be why I don't "fit in" in this world most of the time, at least not in the way I observe most others do. Although I'm quite social (although very situational), I almost always in life have felt like an outsider or like almost an alien who's come for a mission -- "in the world but not of it..."

I pray, meditate, read, walk, do yoga and have done everything in my power to "be a good person" and help contribute to making a better world. I stay positive, own "The Secret," have studied "What the Bleep" and "What the Bleep Down the Rabbit Hole." I've been a spiritual seeker and searcher since I can remember. Since 1993, I've had NUMEROUS (literally hundreds) of healing sessions and am a certified DNA healer myself. I understand the importance of staying positive, so this next paragraph is only meant as a way to communicate where I'm at and why I'm asking for help, for prayers and for Miracles in my life so that I can be a Blessing to myself and others on this Planet. Lately, my heart has opened even more (it's almost unbearable at times) and I've been crying a lot lately over certain world and national situations/occurrences.

My frustration level has reached a new "high." One of the reasons: I had mistakenly received a chunk of money awhile back, being led to believe it was in conjunction with an inheritance. This actually happened twice and turns out it went to the "wrong" (name omitted here) in another state. This is an extremely bizarre occurrence. I had to hire legal help and now owe over $140,000 which I am paying off monthly. I was a totally innocent party in all of this and, needless to say, am not a criminal and there was no intentional wrongdoing on my part. Not to go into further details because it would take too long, suffice it to say, my current financial situation is beyond ridiculous.

I've looked at "why" this may have happened, believe me (numerous healing/psychic sessions). Not to get into all the possible Karmic and/or lessons aspect of this -- this is not why I'm sharing this. I've had plenty of this and, believe me, it's not that I'm not willing to look into it, but at this point, this had gone beyond where any of this sort of analyzing can be of any help to me. I actually do feel I've learned the lessons and I'm ready to move on. That's one of the reasons I'm so frustrated.

Another thing: My husband and I have created these amazing feature film scripts which all have a lot of heart. They are really great scripts (I know everyone always feels that way, but they really are -- we've been told that over and over by people in the business who know what they're talking about) that we have ownership and control of (we created the story, then retained screenwriters to write them). Each and every time we think we are close to a "deal," somehow (so far) it falls through. I was a "struggling" actress for over 13 years, and now have been working at this producing career for over 4 years. In total, I've devoted 17 years of my life to this business, and largely not gotten any "breaks."

Not to sound like I'm complaining or anything, "BUT" I am extremely frustrated and feel as though I'm at the "end of my rope," so to speak. I have had feelings of "why bother" which is not like me and I know it doesn't come from a place of Love & Light. But, quite frankly, I don't know how much longer I can hang in there without some additional "support" from God and the Universe, particularly in financial matters. And, believe me, I AM grateful for my Blessings and for life itself and count my Blessings daily.

PLEASE HELP in the form of prayer or however else you see fit. I feel I've been put to the ultimate test this last 2-3 years and I don't know how much more I can climb the cliff with my bare hands in the middle of a hurricane...

Love & Light

Dearest One,

Thank you for writing and writing so fully. Your difficulties have been many and your courage and persistence have been great. Yet, in a way these difficulties all focus on one central issue - the problem of 'manifesting', with the question that is so deeply troubling to you being why all that you have done and all that you and your husband have done are not creating the effects that you desire. Your heart, which is very much a devotional heart, has given of itself many times over and cannot understand why, based on the Law of Cause and Effect and the Law of Resonance, there is not more of a response from the Universe, especially financially, so that you continue to experience times of crisis and of hardship.

There is a great misconception prevailing today about the nature of 'manifesting'. While the idea that 'thought creates reality' is universally true as is the Law of Resonance or Attraction, neither of these universal principles is meant to suggest that the thoughts that are available to conscious awareness are the only thoughts that are the basis for manifestation, or that these are not influenced greatly by other more subtle levels of belief and reality. Indeed, while the Law of Attraction often works on the level it is engaged with, namely, the level of conscious desire, it also often does not work in cases where conscious thought is superceded by unconscious or 'superconscious' thought, that is, the thoughts and desires of the soul. For many light-filled souls who have come to help the earth at this time, these other levels are more important to the Law of Cause and Effect than the level of conscious manifestation.

For you, dearest one, and for others as well who have come to the earth with a primary goal of serving a mission in addition to benefiting from the human evolutionary experience, your mission and its preparation are designed to take priority over the needs of the personality-self. What this means is that your soul-purpose, rather than the 'Law of Manifestation' on the level of conscious desire, defines the outcome of events in your life, more so than for another life where the service aspect is less important.

Prior to coming to the earth your soul agreed to this, and so even at times of great hardship it is operating out of a sense of inner necessity, even while the outer self may be complaining about the difficulty of life. This complaining is understandable. It is the cry of the embodied self that doesn't know why things have to be so hard. They are hard because your deepest heart and soul are given to a higher priority. They are also hard because the period of contraction caused by forces of darkness has lasted a long time now and continues with great virulence. This has postponed and increased the difficulty of light moving outward and finding an external vehicle for its expression or a receptive response for its desires.

Many times the path of service that souls choose prior to coming to earth, particularly at this time in the planet's history, are paths that add inner strength to the embodied self and a capacity to hold greater light in the face of adversity. This learning is not only needed for you, but will be needed even more for others at a time in the not-too-distant future when the planet as a whole will be experiencing greater upheaval than is present now. To the extent that this understanding is not real to your conscious self, to that extent will it seem like what works for everyone else in relation to creating a life is not working for you. This is what your mind may think: it is not what your soul understands.

Beloved one, for the present, given both the delay in the full expression of your soul-purpose manifesting, and the contraction which is still present, it is important to take a practical view of the situation. This involves 'doing what works' in order to support yourself, even though it may not feel like it is fulfilling your soul-purpose or has your whole heart, and allowing yourself to know that the situation will not always be this way. When light opens up for you as it will as part of the expansion of light on the earth, it will be a different time for you, and you will see that the problem of manifestation no longer exists. Further, it is useful for you to no longer view your own circumstances as a personal problem, but rather as a collective or planetary problem influenced by the present circumstance of contraction of darkness around light-filled intentionality, preventing the normal outflow of light-filled actions and thoughts from connecting with light-filled consequences..

Blessed is your soul, dear one, and your human heart that has struggled so long to get through very difficult circumstances of loneliness, alienation, and a sense of not knowing how to 'do life' so that it works. Understand that your heart and soul are known to God, and so you are asked to wait a little longer and to persist a little longer, while you take comfort in the fact that you are greatly loved.

Pray to experience this love more fully, and even if hardship continues on a financial level for a while longer, pray to feel the love that can uphold you through any difficulty. This love is balm to an aching heart that is very weary, and can make it possible to feel peace in the midst of any hardship. The realms of Light are with you and will continue to be with you in your prayers as they anticipate, with you, changed circumstances for you and for the planet as light penetrates the cloud of darkness in the foreseeable future.

With great love, Julie

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